Full-Blown Suffering: My Battle Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches often start with intense discomfort around one eye that persists up to three hours.

About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the absence of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

One patient, in her seventies, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate disorder, with treatments ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally classified by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his complaints.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack eased.

National guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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Xavier Ball
Xavier Ball

Elena Voss is a productivity consultant and writer with over a decade of experience in organizational efficiency and remote work strategies.

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